It's the end of 2012 and I can't help but think how glad I am that's almost over. So many things have taken place in my life over this past year that could have really broke me. I'm thankful to God for keeping me through some very difficult times in my personal life, marriage, and my family relationships.
As I think on these things, I'm reminded that yesterday is in the past and not to dwell on it. You can't go forward in life if you;re walking backwards. Well, you can, but eventually you're going to bump into something or get run over. But seriously, I know that if I keep my focus on the positive, that is half the battle. At least for me.
What I have found out about myself is that I tend to see things in a negative light and if I let myself stay in that mode, there's no room for change or growth. Even today in church, I learned that sometimes I tend to think of myself, my wants and desires. I don't know if it's self preservation. But sometimes, you have to trust God and try not to control every situation. I have to be honest y'all, that's tough sometimes.
I've also had a problem with comparisons. Thinking that everyone else's grass is greener than mine. That's been a real theme for me. But, I try remind myself that those folks with green grass water it. They feed and manicure their lawns, that's why it's green! Duh! I just need to apply the same effort in my own life and I can get the same results. God is no respecter of person!
So this year, instead of saying that I want to lose weight, or get rich from blogging (both would be nice lol), I plan on keeping it real with myself. My goal is to try not to see life through "I" glasses and stop wanting my life to be like someone else's. I heard someone say that jealousy is counting someone else's blessings instead of your own. Nuff said!
Now, I've been real vulnerable and I hope you all still love me (chuckles). But, this is part of my own therapy. Time to make a change...for real!
Your turn! What are you glad to leave behind in 2012 and what are you planning to work on in 2013?